Taking Back My Life

Taking Back My Life

It’s been one week since the kids and I moved into our new house in Florida. The week has flown by, but at the same time, it seems like it’s been six months. I’m sure any parent trying to work and home school and get basic supplies from the death traps that have become grocery stores can relate.

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We have been loving every moment down here in our new life, and have been abundantly blessed with opportunities in this most beautiful of places.  I can’t believe that, 12 years after leaving this beautiful place (I’m a two-time UCF graduate), I am back with my babies. I also can’t believe Walt Disney World is closed, but that’s neither here nor there.

I have been on a journey, my friends. These last two years have been a period of significant growth for me- perhaps more than any other period in my life. I’ve been able to grow professionally, personally, spiritually, intellectually and emotionally. I have a lot of work to do in many of these areas still, and I’m behind in others, but I have been fighting hard to stop letting life happen to me and get back to dreaming big and living the way that I envision God wants me to live.

And it feels good, friends. Not just because of the Florida sunshine, either.

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I don’t usually dedicate my blog to power ballad raging, and I am far from any rage at this point in my life (hence the Dolly version and not the Stephanie Block version of the posted song). But this song- Get Out and Stay Out by Dolly Parton- wowza is this just ringing true to me in so many ways. It’s been in my head and on my Echo on repeat as I was preparing to start my new life down here, and I’m just gonna drop this for any of my fellow codependents or anyone that is experiencing a breakup, breakthrough or new life right now. Call it cliche, it is.

But it feels good nonetheless and I’m not depriving myself of savoring how hard I have fought and am fighting for me and my babies.

I also want to mention that my heart is heavy for the families that are experiencing significant distress due to stay at home orders. HuffPost wrote an article about this yesterday, and I was in tears reading it. Those for whom school or work is a welcome escape from the horrors of home. You are on my heart and in my prayers, and if there’s something I can do for you, don’t hesitate to drop me a note on here or on facebook.

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I took back my life, and you can too.

 

“Get Out And Stay Out”
I used to need you, but then I finally learned
I used to want you, but now the tables turned
I used to love you, now it’s your time to squirm
I’m saying goodbye and I won’t wait for your return.

So get out and stay out, I’ve finally had enough
Don’t kiss me on your way out, it wouldn’t move me much
You used me, abused me, you cheated and you lied
So get out and stay out, I’m taking back my life

I wonder what you’ll do when I am not around
Now that your new love has up and let you down
You’ve always come crying to me throughout the years
To mend another broken heart, to dry your selfish tears.

So get out and stay out, I’m moving on at last
Cause, I’ve been so foolish, but that was in the past.
I never thought I’d be the one to say goodbye
You get out and stay out, I’m taking back my life.

Dreams and plans are in the making
I just Wish it was as simple as it sounds
Life is out there for the taking
Now that I’m unfettered and unbound

You Get out and stay out, I’ve finally had enough
Don’t kiss me on your way out, it wouldn’t move me much
You used me, abused me, you cheated and you lied
So get out and stay out, I’m taking back my life
I’m taking back my life
I’m taking back my life
taking it back my life
I’m taking it back
I use to need you
I used to want you
I used to love him but now the tables turned.

 

By recoveringsuperwoman

Krista is a a corporate attorney and single mom of 3 young kids- Nico, Gabriella and Milana- residing in Orlando, FL.

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